Monday, May 14, 2018


I'm so madly in love but i don't know why i'm hurting so bad right now..

I tried being myself.

I dont know if my partner can actually accept me for who i am or not but the thing now is..

There's a reason why i dont wanna be in relationships. A reason why i'm single and always friendzoning people.

Relationships can become toxic and it can actually drain someone emotionally.

I hate crying. I know why i'm crying right now but do i deserve this? Do i really need this right now? Life experiences, my ass. I got dumped twice already.

Am i childish? Am i immature?

No. I'm quite manja but tak matang is so not me. I know how to handle shit and how to overcome problems except for relationship problems.

My eyes hurt. Good night

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Wanna Be Yours.

Secrets I have held in my heart
Are harder to hide than I thought
Maybe I just wanna be yours

- I Wanna Be Yours (Arctic Monkeys)

I hate heartbreaks.

I cant stop crying every time i cry. I hate having feelings like this. I thought i didn't have to face these things anymore but i had to one more time.

I'm just broken deep inside even though i always make jokes and laughs at everything. I'm just a doll. I wanna be empty instead of sad. I don't wanna love anyone anymore. I just wanna love myself other than my family and friends.