Mixed Feelings

 Hey.

It's been awhile since i wrote anything here. The last post was put as Fuh Berhabuk and i dont really know what to put for this post punya title haha.

Even though it's been hectic for a few months, i figured it would be fun to blog again. Why? Since posting on social media about your problems will get someone to judge you, it's not really healthy. Soo here i am. The rusty blog with cute details. I'm gonna change it in the nearest time. Maybe..idk. Hehehe

The pandemic is happening for almost a year now and they've found a new one in UK. Apparently mankind wont travel around the world for a long time. Might take years or decades. We never know..

Really thought that i would actually live my idea of going international at the age of 21. Tengok tengok cannot lah. Stuck at home in Jitra, Kedah, Malaysia, South East Asia, Asia, Earth. Aku nak travel pi Danok ja kot since tak pernah but haiya, some mangkaq dont know the limits when they're quarantined or tested positive for Covid-19.

While learning things online, sitting at home..i'm grateful that i stilll have a place to stay in and a family to be with and also friends who supports each other no matter what especially during hard times (call time pagi sebab takut tak bangun kelas, backup time internet slow; yall know who you are and THANK YOU)

Like my title, this post is mixed with A LOT of topics as if it's a series of different stories in Netflix lmao. I hope everyone is okay. I really hope so. It's really hard to study online and have to do things virtually. Just remember that if you do this right, you'll have a bright future. Be strong for yourself. Believe in yourself..say this is the mirror EVERYDAYYYYYYY AND TELL YOURSELF YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY SINGLE WAY *Christina Aguilera's voice*

THIS IS JUST A LAME POST BECAUSE I WANTED TO SAY WHAT I HAVE IN MIND FOR NOW. BYEEEEE <3

Fuh berhabuk.

Wow.

It's been so long since aku dah tak taip benda dekat sini. A year ago. Last update pun about my breakup. Depressing shit i tell you but yeah people dont give shit other than themselves so that's why i started to blog. Again.

I faced so many things before and it's still going on. Can still keep shit calm because i know how to handle things calmly even though my insides are SCREAMING. People are so angry when i tell them to relax and chill the fuck out of them so that things would be better when i know things would get worse.

This is life. No matter how hard it is, just keep moving forward.

Having thoughts about suicide is a bad thing. Instead of fikir nak bunuh diri, cari jalan untuk buat benda berfaedah. I know that talking to someone can trigger your anxiety tapi carilah someone yang you can trust. If not, i'm always here because i've been there before. People don't see shit that you've been through and all you need is a friend who's there to listen.

Kena fitnah, cikgu salahkan kita, kena cop as failure. Name it, i'll tell you my experiences about it.

Benda mudah tak payah stress and semua benda boleh diselesaikan.

Oh i wanna tell you about my life dekat universiti.

It's okay for now. Just not that into the backstabbing thingy because that shit is so lame and people are still doing it here. Funny how you can still be nice to someone and say shit behind their back?