It's Me Again

 Hi there.

It feels so good to be here again. I've honestly forgotten how it feels like typing on a keyboard for this purpose. It's always been on screens, not physically.

Been years since I've left.. How are you, small Wanis? I've re-read everything you wrote and I wish I could've given you the hug that you've been longing for.. Don't you worry anymore because we're getting this going even though the roads are a bit rocky.

At this age, I really do need a companion. It's a lonely journey indeed.. despite having loved ones, they all have their life. I'm no one to bother them especially when the feelings that I feel keeps getting stronger everyday.

Overthinking kills but that's not the thing that's bothering me.. I'm always too hard on myself even when I've reached the goal that I've set myself. Need to work on this as it's bothering my personal and work life. I hate that feeling. It's intoxicating.

I do wish I had someone to talk about my day.. I wanna hear about their day too, All the good and bad tapi.. mungkin Tuhan takdirkan aku untuk tak bertemu dengan sesiapa lagi because He knows I'm going to be at the worst point of my life again; losing someone that I've loved deeply.

It's fine.

Totally fine.

Ironic how I felt like I need to cry tonight and I didnt but then as I'm writing, tears start to fall from my face.

You're a force I can't reject

And I'm trying to escape

- Hello and Goodbye

Oof. This is hurting my eyes.

Hopefully this will be the place where I can rant anything that I need in the day. To many more starts. Muah.