Reflection.

 Hi there.

It's been a week since I've wrote anything. I'm doing okay so far.

I did something today. I finally let my feelings out and it was honestly very fulfilling despite it doesn't reciprocate. I learned how to let go of something that I can't have.. I'm not forcing anything to happen and it's amazing. I really do hope the person that I've expressed to gets to be happy at all times especially with their significant other.

After doing so.. reflections happened. If I didn't tell them how I feel, we would still be friends.. if I didn't agree to go out from the start, we would still be mutuals BUT if I kept quiet about my feelings for them, I would hurt myself for the long run. I needed to be selfish especially when it comes to love.

All of this happened because of a song; Garasi - Hilang. The last time I heard this was in 2020. The song is about enough of waiting for something that's hopeless.

Dimanakah cinta sejati

Yang memberikan ketenangan hati

Sampai kapan ku harus menanti

Kau pergi dan mungkin takkan kembali

Dan aku menangis dan aku terluka bila

Engkau menghilang

- Garasi - Hilang

Aku tak pasti kenapa.. aku dah putus harapan kot dalam cari cinta. It sounds cringey but that's the truth. Tuhan suruh aku hidup sorang ja kot kat dunia. If that's the case, aku redha. Aku redha. Aku pasrah.

That's all for now. Goodbye :)